°°•●◦ Ëşşаy #4 I am §oŗŗy l ĥávë leŧ yøu down ◦•●°°

°°•●◦ Ëşşаy #4 I am §oŗŗy l ĥávë leŧ yøu down ◦•●°°

The little kid that I left behind was the little boy I left in the past. He was the little one I let down. The little kid was me. Days before today I had a long conversation with me as an eight year old. It was not exactly a physical interaction of course, but it was mental. I felt sorry and ashamed for this kid, who smiling stares at to me. His eyes gave the appearance of anger for abandoned his dreams. His thoughts were to become a professional baseball player or a recognized lawyer or a powerful person in his hometown. But these ideas disappeared day by day and then year by year. I could not even notice how the course of the time was absorbing my hopes and wishes to become an important person.
Giving a carefully scrutiny to my old pictures when I was a kid, I found one where I was with my father. I was wearing a blue sport shirt and a white jersey over it. The picture was taken during a baseball tournament held in my city. I was happy; my big smile says it all. The smile on my face implied to me a sarcastic look. I could not keep my eyes on his. The image of the boy brought me to the times were I was in high spirits, the time when everything gave the appearance of being easy. I could not appreciate frustration, pain or desperation, instead of it, this boy in the picture asked me why I let his dreams drain away. He wanted continue playing baseball as always, he wanted to stay close to home and do not abandoned the town and friends or family. The little kid dreamed of the day when he could be part of the professional league of baseball. Now, I can hear through the picture his voice saying, why did you let me in the past and do not bring me to the present? Why are you a drag?
It is really incredible that an object like an apparently a simple picture can transmit message from our childhood. These pictures’ function is to keep us in line. Those are little remainders to all of us who have left their dreams in the past. Curiously, this picture suddenly brought me to the times when following my uncle career I dreamed to became a lawyer. I was convinced that if my dream of becoming a baseball player failed, I would be a public prosecutor. What a drag, apparently, the little boy constantly repeats through the picture. I cannot do anything now, just listen to the voices from my past and look to see where my mistake was or in what moment I permitted the circumstances that stole my self-determination.
I keep a constant battle in my mind. The memories that images from my past transferred are strong enough to create, in my head, an atmosphere of concern and frustration. The picture I held days ago remind of me the time when I promised my parents that I would never move far way from them, nevertheless I left my country. I miss the time I used to play with my friends, the time I spent running thought the forest. The little boy remained me of the era which I spent raising hens and lambs. He reminded me of the time when my mother conversed with me. I still remember the long and dark nights. Those are unforgettable and I believe that those will be with me until my last breath.
Sorry little boy for dragging your dreams down. Sorry for forgetting the promises that I made you when you were an infant. There is not changed to go back to the past and rescue you, but I want to finish by saying that I cannot do anything about the past. I want to keeping with the idea that I can deal with the present and work hard to prepare you and enhance our future.

♪♪♫ Ŧøр Ғỉ٧ë §õŋğŝ ☼ ♫

♪♪♫ Ŧøр Ғỉ٧ë §õŋğŝ ☼ ♫



Smells Like Teen Spirit – Nirvana
Album – Nevermind
Year – 1991
Genre – Alternative Rock
Memorable Lyrics – “Load up on guns bring your friends is fun o lose”
Memory Association – My birthday party, 2003.
Blurb – A song that combine force and sensibility.


Otherside – Red Hot Chili Peppers
Album – Californication
Year – 2000
Genre – Modern Rock
Memorable Lyrics – “Stranger things could never change my mind”
Memory Association – It remind me the time I worked in a night club.
Blurb – Great song that inspire.

My Way – Limp Bizkit
Album – Chocolate Starfish and the Hot Dog Flavored Water.
Year – 2001
Genre – Rock
Memorable Lyrics – “Just one more fight about your leadership”
Memory Association – I used to listen to this song after I broke up in my girlfriend, 2005.
Blurb – It is a powerful song that encouraged anyone to keep stand up.

Blurry – Puddle of Mud
Album – Come Clean
Year – 2001
Genre – Alternative Rock, Grunge.
Memorable Lyrics – Everything’s so blurry and everyone’s so fake
Memory Association – A party in a club
Blurb –

Forsaken – Disturbed
Album – Ten Thousand fits
Year – 2007
Genre – Alternative Metal
Memorable Lyrics – You see I cannot be forsaken because I am not the only one
Memory Association –
Blurb – It is about a guy who has experimented many brokeups.

¤»•∙º●† Šρε¢íål Μømëηŧŝ ¡♦▫○

¤»•∙º●† Šρε¢íål Μømëηŧŝ ¡♦▫○

I won the first prize in the competition on technological areas (veterinary, agriculture, and food industrialization) during my first semester in junior high school. 1992

I won the first prize in the area of veterinary during my third semester in junior high school. 1994

My athletic team won the first prize in the category 4x400 in high school during the national competition celebrated in Puebla City, Mexico, in 1997.

I was accepted in one of the best university in Mexico after I had passed the test.
The university received 12000 applications, but only accepted 6000.

I visited the Statue of Liberty, The Twin Towers, The Empire State Building; I was in the U.S.A. earning my first dollar. 2000.

Sixty Personal Questions

¶ Sixty Personal Questions ¶


Would you rather be rich and have no free time or struggle with money but have loads of free time?
--Be rich it’s something that never would happen but I inclined to have a balance between those two.

If you were a boss, would your rather be liked or feared?
--I would like to be liked, but I do not think I could survive in that atmosphere for long.

Do you prefer to dress nicely or comfortably?
--I prefer comfortable and it is nice much better.

Would you ever get a tattoo? Do you have one?
-- No, never.

Who is the most influential person in your life?
--Well, I have lived independent since I was 14 years old. I have the influence of people who work hard, people who like to fight for their dreams, but definitely, if there is a person who has influenced in my life is my mother.

Do you prefer the excitement of a new relationship or the comfort of a long relationship?
--I prefer the comfort of a long relationship, but unfortunately it has been something that has not worked to me.

Your walking down the street with your love, where are you going?
--Well, As usually we are looking for nice and quiet place to eat and a place where we can talk and enjoy. That’s it.

What is your pet peeve?
--I hate when people try to touch my food when I eating. I strongly disliked that.

What do you get excited about?
--I get excited to go to play soccer, when I get into a new relationship, when I experienced new job. Things like that.

What's the last thing you laughed really hard over?
--My friend pretended he was shot in his legs and crawled as one of them all around the floor. That was so funny.

Could you live without your cell phone for one week? One month?
-- My cell phone for some reason becomes an important device in my life, but of course I could live without it.

What woke you up this morning?
-- My cell phone alarm.

Do you myspace or facebook?
--I use both of them. The use of these is good way to keep in touch with friends.

If you could take one friend on vacation with you, who would it be?
--I have never think about it… mmm.???

Are you scared of spiders, cockroaches, or snakes?
--None.

Could you go a month without cursing?
--Yeah, I guess I could.

Does cursing make you uncomfortable or are you indifferent?
--Iit is something circumstantial. It depends of the moment and the circumstances.

Do you prefer a wild night on the town or a quiet evening at home?
--I prefer quiet evenings at home.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
--Paris.

How many true friends do you have?
--I have many friends, but true friends I don’t think so.

What is something you really want right now?
--I want to get a large coffe….mmm

Are you a forgiving person?
--No, it does not work to me.

Have you ever thought you were going to marry someone?
--Of course. It is matter of time.

Last person to make you smile?
--My little niece.

Do you miss anyone?
--No.

Are you sarcastic?
--Yes.

Is it more important to be honest or kind?
-- I try to be honest but it is difficult to be honest in a world as ours, so at least I try to be kind.

Are you a bad or a good influence?
--Most of people said that I am a bad influence, but I do not share that idea…lol

Is there anyone you want to visit you?
--My relatives who lived in my hometown, Mexico.

What time did you wake up this morning?
-- 6:30am

What is something your friends make fun of you for?
--My hair when I wear hat.

In one word describe yourself.
--Happyandautodetermined

Is there anyone you wish could “see you now?”
-- My friends from Mexico. They would not believe I still at school.

What is your dream job?
--Be my own boss, work in my own business.

Do you listen to music? How often?
--Oh yeah, music is life I listed it every single day.

What is your favorite movie?
--Perfect World.

You is your favorite celebrity?
--You is my favorite celebrity?? I do not understand this question.

Brittany Spears: yes or no?
--well….???..... nope.

Michael Jackson: yes or no?
--nope

Tom Cruise: yes or no?
--what?? nop

Madonna: yes or no?
--rarely

What is your favorite song?
--One that is in my head right now..♪♪♪

Are you easily offended?
--Yeah, I think so. Do not even try.

What is your favorite book?
--“Portrait in sepia”

Does the idea of going to college intimidate you?
--Nope.

Do you like change?
--Change is nature, nature is change.

Are you a control freak?
--I try.

What is the scariest experience you’ve ever had?
--It was one night when I was living in Mexico. One night I when to hunting, I was so tired to walk so I decided to take a rest into the forest. I slept there and when I woke up there were many wolfs around me.

What is the happiest moment you’ve had in the last year?
--My birthday.

Do you consider yourself a hard worker, or are you lazy?
--Hard worker. I strongly disliked lazy people.

What is your favorite leisure time activity?
--Play soccer.

Do you like reading?
--Yes.

When you read, what makes it interesting for you?
--The style of the author to combine his ideas and how he transmitted to readers.

What makes you feel like a successful student?
--Achieve my goals.

What are your plans for next year?
--Continuing my college. I would lie if I siad get married…☺

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There are many factors that influence our formation as we grow up and become adults. A great part of those factors are people, principally, parents, siblings, relatives and close friends. Between these people there is always one that definitely plays the most important role in our life. The influence of anyone in our development is of vital importance because it will be the base of our future, and as a consequence it will constitute the path of our vocation. In my personal situation, the most influent individual in my life is my mother. She taught me the most important values that as human we have, she encourage me to finished it my education, and she inspire me to continue growing as human being.
The values that my mother taught me have been the basis for my good association with the exterior world. Firstly, she taught me the respect for others and to take care for the neediest. She always implied to me that I should give without expecting anything in return, and that is what I usually do. I rarely request any recompense for favors. The value of money does not matter when love and human sense is behind the action. During my childhood I could see many children who lacked the basic necessities, so I used to give them as much clothes, food as I could. At that time I though that I was the poorest person in the world, but then I remember once I was working in farm and a person approached me asking for food. I had more than enough and without thinking I gave it him. I could appreciate that the fortune we are the ones we have at least enough to eat. I also remember I went to visit to my cousin and I noticed he did not have any food to eat at his house because his parents were separating and as a consequence, they lacked the basic necessities. As soon as I got home I told my mother that terrible situation and she packed a little meal of pasta, beans, rice, and gave it to me to take to my relatives. These examples have taught me the value of the humanity. If this norm were applied to the society, the connivance with the rest would be fantastic because the world would be more sensitive and reasonable.
The importance of human values was the first thing I learned from my mother. The other thing she taught me was to believe in freedom, to believe that all people are equal, and we were made with the same capacities. She encouraged me to follow my dreams. Every time she spoke to me she did with love and courage. She always tried to give the necessaries strengths to confront the adversities. One of her dream was to become a professional, but she could not. Her parents were too poor to give her the education she wanted. Her lacks of opportunities created in her mind an idea of frustration. Then, she got married and it finished her dream to become a specialist. The benefit of this was that all her wishes and dreams she could not accomplish became hopes that in the end were transmitted to me. She motivated me to attend the elementary school; she helped me to achieve my assignments. She was the one who encouraged me to get into high school and then into the university. She was part of my triumphs that were many during my preparation. Even now she still influencing in my instruction and her advice continues to stick in my head. All I do, I do for me, but also for her. I dream of the day I graduate from college and give her the satisfaction of being and specialized individual. That would be the only way I could repay the great values and wisdoms advice she transmitted me.
I feel grateful for the all principles and advice that my mother handed to me. All of them have helped me to move through difficult circumstances in my life. I had to leave my house before I was 18 years old. I have been separated from my family for 10 years but it has not been a motive to forget the words of my mother. For this reason she is still be the person who inspired me to wake up every day and try to be better human being. She has been the most admirable person I have ever known. My mother and my father for reasons I do not know got separated when I was seven years old. Since then my mother has been my father and mother. She had to take care of me and my three brothers and five sisters. There are nine members in the family. She gave us the best of her life; she gave us protection. I feel very proud of her because even she could not be capable to complete her dreams; she is the person who motivated me to never give up even the challenged the life implies.
In conclusion, the way I am depends direct and indirectly on the advice my mother taught me during my childhood, the manners that are belong to me are part of a great person who knew guide thought the best way. For me no super hero can compare with the great woman that is my mother. She is the one I admired for her brave spirit to fight. Definitely, the most important and influent person in my personality is my mother.

•●*» Ëşşαұ #2 Ťħé Ïŋƒŀúeŋсє θƒ Muşįс ׀ŋ Μÿ Ľįƒε ‹‹•♫▫♪

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What is a personality? What are the factors that determine our personalities? There are two elemental aspects that influence our behavior direct or indirect, naturals and socials. Naturals, those are handed down by our parents: eyes, hair color and other physical aspects. The other aspect that is important for our formation is social. It is well know that those social aspects are the most influential in our identity as individuals. It is important to understand that our behavior mostly depends on our environment, our friends, and our surroundings. Music is an important social piece that definitely contributes to our conduct. It is results are easy to demonstrate because as examples can tell about me and how music has contributed to the way I am in three different ways. It has influenced in my ideas, the selected group of friends and lastly, the way I like to dress.
During my first years I listened the traditional music from my nature Mexico (boleros, nortena, banda, balada), but as I mature my preferences changed. I changed from romantic to rock music. Those two genres are completely different. The rock genre has the characteristic of using guitar and instruments that produce loud sounds, maybe even noisy. But this genre uses especial lyrics that combined with the electrical guitars, drums and others instruments made it one of the most energetic genres and preferred for many. Most rock lyrics are strong and sensitive. These two characteristics make the rock music a symbol of rebellion. It was this aspect that I liked from the rock music. It changes my ideals. Anytime, if for any reason I felt down, I listened to songs such as “My Way” by Limp Bizkit or “Smells Like Teen Spirit” Because Nirvana and my grievances faded. This music makes me feel powerful and alive. Since I started listened this kind of music I feel free to express what I really want. The lyrics on the rock songs mostly express real emotions that regularly are true and sincere and it make it a easy genre adopted by people who sees them self identified with the songs. If I could write a song, it should be in this genre.
It is true that music has changed my ideas in the way I express but it also has influenced to find or identify my circle of friends. It is almost certain that any person who likes rock could be recognized by the way he talks. I have two brothers but they do not like rock, instead they still prefer traditional music from my country (Regional Mexicana, usually romantic). It has been a constant dispute when we decided to play music at home because they strongly dislike rock music. It is something different when I join with my friends. Most of them love alternative music such as “By the way” by Red Hot Chili Pepper or “Por el resto” by Enanitos Verdes, logically, we really enjoyed those days we have party. My friends and I have gone to many rock concerts and all the time we have enjoyed as the first one. On weekends, we usually join in someone’s house and order food and listen rock and roll. I respect the preferences of anybody, but I feel more open talking with people who like the same kind of music as I do, rock.
Since I inclined my preferences for alternative music, I revolutionized my thoughts, I defined my friends, and as result I changed my style of dress too. I really like the designs on my shirts, especially, if those are guitars or rebels figures. I like to wear necklaces and bracelets. My clothes are mostly kind of vintage and black. I like to wear boots and sometimes converse shoes made with canvas material. The t-shirts I usually wear are full of designs almost faded. I have some t-shirts with skull figures that are considerate like symbol of rock music. This inclination for this staff it is something that make feel relax and free.
In conclusion, the tendency that people have for something is a consequence one of the two factors, congenial or environment. The socials factors such as music definitely influence in our comportment and the way we developed. There are many music genres for all kind of preferences. I really love the great vary of music styles because it makes music one of the most influential factor in our behavior.